Photographer: David Gibson
There are photographs in which I am clearly acting out a character and then those which according to the photographers that took them reveal a bit of me, what I offered them - what they saw, I'd say. Not necessarily an untruth, only a momentary truth. I usually enjoy seeing others' perception of me, sometimes I find it disturbing, sometimes abhorrent. What I see in the mirror is not me, what I see in photographs is rarely me as I know myself and yet it is. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what do you really see? When you look at images of yourself, what do they tell you about yourself, if anything?
One of my favourite models is Cindy Sherman. I should say artist because she models for herself, in other words she takes self portraits - it's interesting, is it not, that when you take self portraits you are an artist, when you model you are not quite an artist. But hers are self portraits with a difference. She interprets characters for herself but her portraits are never personal, they are conceptual theatrical performances for her own camera.
Photographer: Mark Varley
Women artists such as Frida Kahlo in the 20th century invested their self portraiture with their own psychological and physical suffering and took it to a different level.
Photographers started to take their own portraits as soon as photography began. All the famous names in photography at some point did it, Newton, Avedon, Warhol and so on.
Sherman, now 56, began when she was still a student and became famous when still young. She explained to the New York Times in 1990, "I feel I'm anonymous in my work. When I look at the pictures, I never see myself; they aren't self-portraits. Sometimes I disappear."
Photographer: Gregory Brown
But I have plenty of time ahead of me to accomplish my goal. I hope to find, as I embark on this journey, a few like minded travellers willing to share tips.
* Title borrowed from Amelia G. Jones' book published by Routledge in 2006.
(All photos modelled by Alex B.)
This one of the most thoughtful and literate blogs on figure photography out there. Unbearable Lightness is the other I read regularly. I am so happymto have found both of you.
ReplyDeleteHullo Alex,
ReplyDeleteInteresting post. I once some years ago gave a model, (Jane) a bulb release attached to the camera (a long extension camera trigger), and left the room for a while while she made images of herself. The results were interesting, at first she was shy(!) of the camera and then warmed up and became more familiar and made a series of fairly contorted photographs of herself. Interesting outcome, and the photographs are her copyright too I suppose.
I shall have to do something about that.
Happy New year Alex
Best
Hugh
Thank you both, Eric and Hugh. Hugh I have emailed you , love the idea...
ReplyDeleteWishing you both a wonderful 2011
truly beautiful artistry...you are remarkable
ReplyDeleteI like your comments about what you see vs. what the photographer sees.
ReplyDeleteThe photographer may choose to capture an aspect of you that you find unattractive, but they would surely not have captured it unless THEY found it attractive... It would be an interesting exercise in self-acceptance to try to see whatever it is the photographer sees in you that you hadn't liked instinctively.
I'm glad that you mentioned Cindy Sherman.
She's been a great inspiration to me in my portraiture. I rarely reach the same theatricality that she achieved in early series, but her expressive style was, as I said, very inspiring.
Hatebunny thanks for butting in.
ReplyDeletePhotographers do not necessarily capture what they find attractive. Sometimes they are fascinated by something that is not attractive at all but they want to capture that. Modelling can be an exercise in self acceptance. Modelling for myself certainly will be.